Wow. I'm sorry OP. Please don't do anything to hurt yourself. Let us know you are okay!

Please try again! I volunteer as a suicide hotline counselor and most of us really care, know what we're doing, and want to help! I'm sorry you had such a horrible experience.

OP. Don't do it. Please PM me. I'm a suicide attempt survivor. Worst decision I've ever made. I've been in that dark place and it is hard to leave it. It's not worth it. There are too many people who care about you. ^^^^ look even prefect strangers care enough to give you support. Call the hotline again I'd you have to.

OP life has it's ups and downs, You have a whole community here to help you though this bump in the road!

OP I will only say this : “If you can't fly then run, if you can't run then walk, if you can't walk then crawl, but whatever you do you have to keep moving forward.” Martin L. King

yeah ive called one before the people who answer those hotlines are total dicks, or morons

My cousin just committed suicide 3 days ago. Don't do it. You have no idea of how painful and hard it will be on your family and friends. You think no one cares, but they do. I've been crying for 3 days and I just quit a new job I desperately needed because they wouldn't give me time off to go to his funeral on Saturday. If you need help or need to talk to someone, do it, but it's wrong to put your friends and family through that kind of suffering.

OP- Everyone is saying how they've been where you are and they came through it. I'm where you are right now. And I have to say, somehow your post gave me a little hope. I know it's weird, but after reading that I just feel kind of better right now. Already your being alive is help to other people. I know that terrible feeling of being on the brink of suicide and wanting to reach out and finding nothing there. Even when you called and found the douchbag there you still came back. You already know that you shouldn't kill yourself because you called the hotline in the first place. I'm thinking you just wanted someone to talk to, to feel like there's a reason for you to be here. There is, that guy didn't help you. But you helped me. OP, keep doing what you're doing, you're doing it right and if you ever need another reason not to kill yourself think about the amount of total strangers who care about you. And think about the life you saved because you didn't take yours. I wish you all the good things this life has to offer and whatever you're feeling, suffering, experiencing, I hope it passes and you can live this life with a different outlook than you had on that day. Be strong, be safe, and live long. I love you, even though I know nothing about you. I love you because you're an inspiration to me, I love you because you're alive, and I love you because you found the strength inside of you to keep living.

I just scrolled back up to the top and I saw that you're in Illinois. I'm in northern Illinois. Near Chicago, OP if you see this and you want to talk, you can contact me and we can go get coffee, see a crappy movie, get dinner. I know it's not healthy to depend on other people to ALWAYS make you happy. But when you're on the brink of suicide it's perfectly acceptable to let someone take you away from your problems for a bit. I'm not saying we have to be best friends, but I want you to know there's someone on the other side of this comment that's sincere, nonjudgmental, and I don't care what's going on, if you ever need someone for anything, anytime, you can contact me and I'll give you whatever contact you need to feel better when you're feeling so low that killing yourself is a viable option. Love you OP honestly.

Remember that out of all the awful, deadly places in the Universe to inhabit, you got Earth!! I know times can get dark, but life is pretty awesome and beautiful in the end, just hang in there!