Ambitious but possible?

OP, I can sympathize. I survived cancer but chemotherapy left me with neuropathy in my hands and feet. That changed my quality of life. I hate it, but I am still alive and getting around… There some health conditions from which we never fully recover. What you have to do is to find things that interest you and apply yourself to that. You might discover something you like even better than skating, but you won’t know until you try. Not everything you try will ultimately be a good interest, but something will likely be.

🫂 Grieve, spend a few sessions in therapy straightening yourself out and then focus on finding what you *can* still do and pick new things you enjoy doing from the selection. My spine and right leg crapped out on me 20 years ago, I still miss my roller boots, bikes, dancing and martial arts but there's still a load of things I can do. I just never imagined it would involve things like Loom knitting, chair yoga or wood turning but here I am. Same for you, you just have to go find them. You don't feel like it right now but once you start finding things you *can* do, you'll start feeling better about life in general. It's a loss and a change, a lot of people never get over the loss, those that do can keep themselves out of the depression of it a lot better. Even the most gold medaled Paralympians still get hit by the depression stick about it but adapting, evolving and thriving generally means it hits you less, it's not so deep and you can pull yourself back out a bit easier and quicker. I've been told it's not entirely healthy to find things I can do just to spite the disabled bits but it works for me. The feeling of 'ha! **** you! I win' is petty as hell but sustaining. Start with the little victories and work your way (sensibly) up from there. You'll be surprised at how many you find yourself collecting once you start.