It is ok. Don't be hard on yourself. The easiest way to find your purpose is through process of elimination. Figure out what you dont want and sooner or later you will find a career that does work. I recommend getting at least a bachelor's so you don't hit a glass ceiling and professionally handicapped. Once you have steady income start following the FIRE (Financial Indepdence Retire Early) principles. With a bachelors degree you can apply to the Peace Corp and that will really make you grow, find deeper purpose and physically strengthen you. If you are lucky you may find a passion that you can do even after you retire from "work". This advice game plan process will take many years, but I hope this helps. Just remember to never stop learning.

I agree with others it is a process. You don't have to have a purpose handed to you. In fact, expect that nothing will be handed to you that doesn't come out of a rectum. Instead, make your purpose. Do not turn a hobby into a career (or you will hate your hobby/relaxation time). Find what you are good at. While I dislike people, I am good working with them in a team setting and so I am a program manager. I still have tons to learn, but that allows for growth. I am also great with (and enjoy) biology (and have an applied Bio degree) but not good enough for a career. It took working in one to learn enough about what I do and don't want to do. That doesn't happen over night. Just get out there and try new stuff till you find you.

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It's all about writing hilarious comments on FML. You found it! We who already have the Knowledge of the Meaning of Life welcome you to our number. Keep these gems in your back pocket: That sucks. I hope you mean EX-boyfriend. You dodged a bullet. Sounds like a shitty situation.

Some of us have it figured out approximately what we want to do with our lives and careers by the time we are college age, and then they can focus on a major that is in that path. I was fortunate in that, and I believe that in my case it helped having jobs when I was a teen plus I went with my Dad as I grew up as he did appliance and AC service repair. I figured out that I like electricity and electronics because of my exposure to that through my Dad and my own hobbies. By the time I took my aptitude test in high school, it was no mystery where my interest lay. I became an electronic engineer even though when I started that path I had no concrete grasp that on what that meant I would be doing every day. For me it was a good choice… Figuring out what you want to do with your life usually requires an exposure to a variety of things so you know what you like to do and what you don’t like to do. And once you have a general direction, you can refine your plans as you go. Nobody suddenly wakes up one morning with their life plans and goals mapped out. You have to explore various fields - This comes by learning either first hand by trying things or by talking to and listening to people who do things that interest you. In my case it was many small things pushing me in that direction from my early love of classic science fiction that tended to glorify inventing things, to my hands on exposure to electrical appliances by my dad, to a couple of jobs that taught me I that didn’t want to spend my life working doing that… OP, there is little better career wise, than having a career that gives you a reasonable degree of challenge where you feel good about yourself for the job you did and you are paid well enough to afford the life you want. Different people like different things, there is no one answer. And you have to be realistic - Very, very few become successful at things like being a rock star, actor/actress, or NFL player. Most become successful by finding something that they have an aptitude for and there is a decent job market for. While you might love ancient literature, there are very few jobs for that. Some people go through a series of jobs before either finding what they like or giving up. You don’t find these things out without experiences - Either your own or learning from the experiences of others.

Some of us have it figured out approximately what we want to do with our lives and careers by the time we are college age, and then they can focus on a major that is in that path. I was fortunate in that, and I believe that in my case it helped having jobs when I was a teen plus I went with my Dad as I grew up as he did appliance and AC service repair. I figured out that I like electricity and electronics because of my exposure to that through my Dad and my own hobbies. By the time I took my aptitude test in high school, it was no mystery where my interest lay. I became an electronic engineer even though when I started that path I had no concrete grasp that on what that meant I would be doing every day. For me it was a good choice… Figuring out what you want to do with your life usually requires an exposure to a variety of things so you know what you like to do and what you don’t like to do. And once you have a general direction, you can refine your plans as you go. Nobody suddenly wakes up one morning with their life plans and goals mapped out. You have to explore various fields - This comes by learning either first hand by trying things or by talking to and listening to people who do things that interest you. In my case it was many small things pushing me in that direction from my early love of classic science fiction that tended to glorify inventing things, to my hands on exposure to electrical appliances by my dad, to a couple of jobs that taught me I that didn’t want to spend my life working doing that… OP, there is little better career wise, than having a career that gives you a reasonable degree of challenge where you feel good about yourself for the job you did and you are paid well enough to afford the life you want. Different people like different things, there is no one answer. And you have to be realistic - Very, very few become successful at things like being a rock star, actor/actress, or NFL player. Most become successful by finding something that they have an aptitude for and there is a decent job market for. While you might love ancient literature, there are very few jobs for that. Some people go through a series of jobs before either finding what they like or giving up. You don’t find these things out without experiences - Either your own or learning from the experiences of others.

There is no single answer to "What is the meaning of life?". It's up to you to live your life the way you choose. And if, at the end, you feel like it meant something to you, that's all that matters.