Your misery is mostly your own fault for getting married when you didn't want to, and after that agreeing to kids you didn't want instead if getting a divorce(assuming your wife was insistent). Do you not love your children? How sad for them. I see this as an FML for your wife and children.

Nobody can force you to say I do, even if she Proposed bc you “never wanted to get married”— and IF you asked her for her hand then WTF are you complaining about. Nobody forced you to be at the alter after you went in person to the courthouse to apply and purchase the marriage license. YOU—-YOU did that, Then if you never wanted kids, who the hell stopped you from nipping your balls! Huh? ONLY your own little brain did. SO that fact you have two little kids is your own damn fault bc no one ****** your wife with YOUR seed but YOU. Then even with all that your a shitty DAD for not teaching your children to respect other people’s items