By Anonymous - 09/08/2012 04:19 - United States - La Crosse

Today, I found one of my mom's old diaries that dated back to my infant days. I couldn't help but read a little. I'm now in great concern over how many times my mom wrote that she wanted to dunk me in the toilet or throw me against a wall. FML
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emilyjgraham 34

I'm sure you'll understand one day, not that every mother wants to use violence, but how stressful having a child can be. Maybe your mother went through post natal depression but wasn't diagnosed, it happens. Just let it slide, I'm sure she's happy now. She might not want to remember the feelings she had. :)

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QueenSaru 28

1. Shame on you for reading your mum's diary. How can you 'not help it'? Did you fall face first into the pages and absorb the words through osmosis? 2. Being a parent is STRESSFUL. I was allergic to breastmilk, I had colic, and I screamed (literally) for the first six months of my life. My parents had to look after me in shifts between working, night school (for my mum), and looking after my older brother. My dad has said that he can fully understand how people with less patience could snap and harm their child, even if it's not something they would ever consider themselves "able" to do in a NORMAL situation. No sleep and high stress can break you, and that's not even including the possibility of post partum depression. OP, let it go. You were in the wrong for being nosy, and her inner thoughts are not yours to know. If all you have of your mother is good memories, there's no reason to believe this is something you should worry about. This is not a FYL or a YDI, it's just life.

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BobbieH 19

Many new parents have difficulties. You shouldn't have read personal writings and you shouldn't judge your mom over it. She didn't dunk you or throw you so obviously her frustration just needed to come out. It's healthy to get those thoughts out instead of acting on them. You brought this on yourself, you deserve it and you should see things things from their perspective before you judge.

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Teabubbles 8

ehh as much as i thought that 54, about hoping she didnt have a child at such a young age, i wouldnt automatically assume thay she doesnt tend to responsibilities to her child. Especially since she mentions she plays games and such. Everyone has different stresses in life, im glad her child is being tend to. :)

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Teabubbles 8

sorry, your a guy* i dodnt realize that i just read 54 and 61's comment. but i hope your child is doing fine! :) Cant judge too much these days, everyone has an unusual case in their life.

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BigSexy123 11

That's probably not the case at all, and also you're a rambling idiot. Way to pull all the stops on the guilt trip, by the way. Some people get curious, and clearly she wasn't using it anymore. Get the hell over it.

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perdix 29

This story separates the parents from the non-parents. Non-parents: OMG! That's horrible! Parents: Why was she dumb enough to write that shit down?

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QueenSaru 28

Haha, seriously. Though my parents do remind me that had I been born first, I'd be an only child. XD

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perdix 29

#92, that's funny. I was the first-born and I was such a wonderful baby (no one knows where it all went wrong ;) ), that my folks thought parenting was easy. So, they had my brother, and he was a typical baby, so they thought they'd try two out of three, but my sister came out normal, too. They quit after that because they realized they were lucky to have one Superbaby. A fact which I lord over my brother and sister to this day :)

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QueenSaru 28

Haha, my brother was the world's most peaceful and angelic baby, well-behaved and ate anything you gave him. I was allergic to everything including breast milk, and screamed from colic for six months. XD My poor parents got a shock with me, that's for sure!

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outoftown 26

It's not just parents. When I first started babysitting, I had to keep reminding myself that if I killed the kid, I wouldn't get paid.

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cameronman9 2

What does op mean

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Myo_fml 20

All mothers experience this. I was my mother's first baby and she has said that back then she wanted to smother me or drown me. Babies just push people to their limits, that's all.

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courtneyann211 10

Not all mothers do. I've got 5 1/2 week old twins and honestly, I enjoy getting up in the middle of the night or staying up all night due to a screaming baby or 2. You learn to take power naps even if it's for 30 minutes here and there.

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