OP, please try to get some help! Here's somewhere to start: the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK. I'm a hotline counselor and sometimes it really just helps to talk to a stranger for a bit (callers opinions, not mine).

Please talk to a counselor about the depression.

Wtf, this isnt an fml. This is just f*cked up! I would really look up a psychologist! (If you wasn't already)

That's ****** up.

Stop making this ONLY about sex and realize the focal point of the FML is about depression. She didn't want to kill herself because the sex is bad, her depression is so bad that not even sex could pull her away from suicidal thoughts. Chin up, OP. I've been there. It's a long, hard road out of hell but it's worth it every time.

Hey, depression is tough, but you'll get through it. It can be overcome.

Have you tried talking to him about this?

I have depression too OP! I know it's really rough but trust me you can get through it. If it gets bad enough there are some places to go to that will help you. I went for 3 days and it was the best experience ever. You got this OP it's all gonna be ok

Sounds like you need a psychiatrist and a therapist ASAP. Sex should be more enjoyable than thinking about suicide. Get help.

You really need to speak with someone. Suicide is not something to be taken lightly...