I've been there, friend. You don't have to carry on like this. Go a referral to rehab and also go to AA. I went and am now 2 years sober and life is brilliant! My only regret is waiting so long til I went. You can stop drinking and life will be so much better.

Next time try to make it two hours.

It's called a problem, not a habit. Get some help, love :/

It's a disease

Accidentally hit "That could've happened to me" but YDI for sure.

I understand. I have almost a year of sobriety for alcohol. It's never too late or too soon to get help. I'm sure you can do it :) You are stronger then you think! Good luck!! :)

OP, I'm really sorry to hear that you're struggling with a drinking problem. I know I'm only repeating what other people have said, but please, do your best to seek help NOW. The longer you put it off the harder it will become. My father is an abusive alcoholic. The difference in his personality between when he drinks and when is sober is astounding; before the alcoholism I would have described him as kind, generous, and loving. Now, I can only view him as a hateful, aggressive, selfish, and abusive piece of [insert choice swearword here]. Like Dr Jedkyll and Mr Hyde. There is also only so much the people who love you will probably take. I'm a little ashamed to admit it, but I have not exactly changed for the better since I have lived with him in this condition. I have become a bitter, unforgiving person. I no longer view him as my father and I don't see that changing anytime soon if at all. Alcoholism can take EVERYTHING from you. Your job, your licence, your family, your friends, your sanity, and eventually probably your life too. I do not know to what extent you have a drinking problem, but if you yourself think you have a problem, PLEASE consider looking into a support system, such as AA, and/or a psychologist. Apologies for the long post/rant; I spent last night watching ambulance people needing to take my father to the hospital while comforting my mother and am pretty sensitive about this topic. For the sake of yourself and the sake of the people you care about and who care about you, please do your best to take care of yourself, OP. I wish you all the best.

Get help before you are waiting at the door for them to open because your need for it overrides your caring about what they think.

You definitely need to get help! Being able to admit that you have a problem is the first step and you've obviously admitted that. Get help, keep your head up, stay strong and take any helpful support you can get.

You need rehab